Perfectly perfect

So let me take you back to a time in my life where nothing ever went wrong. Not saying that anything is wrong now, but a simpler time in my life where inspiration would flow from every part of my heart. I could sit by the water and come up with a poem or song that was imaginative and fresh. I thought about this the other day. Where did all my inspiration go? I havent written much since I have been in college, and the stuff I have written just doesnt hit me like the others did. Its like life threw me a paper and it said "real life sucks, not everything is what you will want it to be, and you can't think in that imaginative box you used to."

I used to see the big in the small. When passing a butterfly I would stand still in awe at the creation God made. Now, its just another flying organism... A sunset can still take me by surprise, but what about the days where they would take my breath away and bring me to a place where I fell to my knees and said "God you are so amazing." But words would have been bigger than that....such as "Indescribable." Or they would leave me speechless. I could see all of the beauty in just one work of art that is God's creation. I could listen to a song that would take me to a place of insane imagination. How about Denison MArrs, World Renown for Romance, track 12. Have you ever listened to that? Well its been a while for me. I used to listen to it and I could feel myself floating through space....Not just "Space", but I could see the stars, and feel the cold air on my skin. I could hear the stars. It just all made since in that song.

What about the friendship. The friendship that brought you to other worlds mentally and spiritually. I was challenged daily. That one friendship that meant the world to me and I wouldnt trade it for anything at the time, and looking back I would never trade any of those moments. Riding down the road dancing and singing at the top of our lungs to weezer tribute, while we drank our cherry limeaids and said "from here to eternity!" When every song you heard you knew it described your life. It was perfect.

How about graduation when you were excited about that day. you didnt cry one bit. You looked back excited that its gone and you would never have to go back to those days again. You praised God for the opportunity to miss senior year to do full time dual enrollment.

Then that next week you realize you miss it a little. Then you begin college, you loose that friend and the memories start dissapearing and then it hits you...those moments are just memories...you will never go back to that time again. It begins to look a little rough...

All of your friends begin to get serious boyfriends. Then they begin to get the ring. Then they start getting married. Facebook becomes depressing to get on after a while, you never know when you'll see a new album about a wedding...

But then real life hits again and you realize that you are just where you want to be. Life is perfectly perfect the way it is. Your right where God has placed you and there is reason in your life. And imagine this...the man of your dreams comes into your life. Inspiration comes in different forms than it used to. You just see the world a different way to prepare you for the rest of your life. Music still bring you to a different level, and its real life. Your following God's path. its perfect.